Jasper Wilhelm Bendz

Hi, hello. (:

2009-05-04T23:07:00.003+08:00

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2009-04-18T18:25:00.002+08:00

I've not been blogging for very long.
I'm going to change to livejournal.
I think it's much more private.
But not user-friendly.

Anyway, people should know how much we want to win.
Get the champions cup for Temasek Regatta.
Those who've seen us train should know.
Those that trained with us should know.
How much we sacrificed for the race.
How much pain we went through for the race.
How much did we push ourselves every training.
But yet.
We didn't get gold.
We gave our all,
But our team wasn't good enough.
However, it's not that medal that lasts forever.
It's the memories we can keep forever.
Bitter quarrels, fights.
Sweet victories.
That hardship we went through.
That support we gave each other.
We trained so hard,
So many teams are eyeing us.
We proved to them that we're not a lousy team.
We've progressed from plate finals to the grand finals.
That's a lot of improvement.
Let's not just cry over spilt milk and prove to the world that we can make it.
Bronze now, is just a stepping stone for us.
We will rise up to the defeat.
We disappointed Coach.
We let ourselves down.
All those that held so high hopes in us.
I now know that, Dragonboat isn't just a CCA.
It isn't just a team-building sport.
It's the bittersweet memories and the friendships we make.
It's more than just winnings and losings.
Dude, let's work hard and live up to our name.

Yes, those of you who thought we were so strong.
Like they said,
There are always a stronger team to beat you.
We're not.
I seriously hate two teammates on the boat that adds on to the weight.
Complains alot and cannot contribute to the boat. -.-

I am so tanned.
Omg.
The heat's killing me.
30.4 degrees. -.-

You're the one giving up, not me.

2009-04-10T23:36:00.001+08:00

Remedial, gym, swim, sun-tan.
Tomorrow's activities.

Race day is near, friday.
Gotten our jersey.
God, fbt shorts? O_O

I'm hungry now. -.-

2009-04-09T20:59:00.001+08:00

Zac Efron.

Is th sexxxxx.

Crash And Burn.

2009-04-05T10:01:00.007+08:00

I have a whole week at home unless stated by Mr Poon.
How cool.
Kinda stupid, getting suspended for the stupidest ordinary stuff in the world.
Cigarettes. -.-

Dragonboat is finally paying off,

Many teams are eyeing our team already.
Well, at least we know we're getting somewhere.

We'll have training everyday. (E-V-E-R-Y-D-A-Y. Sundays included)
Sea trainings and gym.
HAH. I swear I'm gonna get champs.
If not, all the hard work and sufferings we went through became shit.

Guitar, I'm working on it.

Time to wake up, or I'll get left behind.

2009-03-22T23:05:00.001+08:00

Dude, holidays are over.
Shucks.

2009-03-12T23:13:00.002+08:00

School results were not satisfactory.
I plan to work hard over the holidays.
Incorporate Dragonboat's determination in my schoolwork.

Dragonboat is getting quite somewhere.
However I'm disappointed with the team.
We worked so hard only to fuck the ending.
Race is coming and we're still shit.
We've got to buck up.

Guitar,
I'm losing every single bit of concentration over it already.
I'm getting sick and tired of classes.
Being with fuck-ups and losers.
I really don't wanna go on.

But, I have to go on.

"If you have a dream, you've got to protect it."
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MPnudujlBZI

Is this your salvation?

2009-03-04T22:27:00.002+08:00

I am going to learn As I Lay Dying's An Ocean Between Us.
I think As I Lay Dying rocks. :D :D :D

E Maths test today.
I think I am sick.
Downloaded tons of tabulatures.
I know of one sick dude who covers songs perfectly.
And I have all his tabs. :D :D :D :D

Tomorrow coach's not gonna come.
Training sure slack.
I am sure.
Damn sure.

Friday - Dragonboaters' lunch @ Seoul Garden Tampines.
Saturday - Flag Day with class @ Lavender, thereafter meeting Brad and the rest go town.

$$$

2009-03-01T21:52:00.002+08:00

I am super tired and busy nowadays.
Shucks.

Friday gym-ed.
Tired like crazy.
Went home, prepared.
Went to Pasir Panjang Food Court to have satays and stingrays.
Mom said that it's renowned for it's satays. O:

Saturday remedial-ed at uhm, 5A2 or smth.
Amar told me 5a1. =.=
After remedial, played soccer.
Reach home, prepared.
Went Tampines mall.
Then went Pasir Ris Park for Fizi's bbq.
Ate, taiti-ed and shisha-ed.
Played the playground in the cold, heavy rain.
Got mud all over my white pants and, I kinda like it.
I meant, I never let myself played like a kid already.
Endured 45 minutes in the freezing cold bus, looking like an idiot.
It's kinda worth it for letting myself loose and know what's fun.
Kinda alot of stuffs happened on saturday.
Fun.
Reached Bedok's house at 12.45am.
Prepared, walked to the bus stop and waited for 51.
Reached Hougang's house around 1.30am.

Sunday,
Studied for Physics.
Practised my guitar.

It's like raining and raining very heavily these few days.
How I wish there's no school lah.
Then I can sleep all day.

2009-02-26T23:04:00.002+08:00

Training is getting tougher and tougher.
We're gonna try and use the gym tomorrow.
Then followed by a run in the bedok reservoir.
Well, maybe a few of us only.
But still, it's gonna work out for us.
Everything we do now, we do it for the race.

Today's relatively well, or shitty.
Depending if you were to be the one who see's the glass as half-empty,
Or half-full.

Tired, very very tired.
I came home with a big appetite that I am still eating chips now.
Gah.
I wanna go sleep soon.

2009-02-25T22:13:00.002+08:00

Okay, I'm quite tired nowadays.
I reached home around 8pm.
Shucks.
Tomorrow's training.
Did 15 pull-ups and I almost wanted to die. -.-
Pe's tomorrow also.
Push-ups later.
Guitar tomorrow night. :D

HOMEWORK.
Gah, Mr Wong confisicated my phone while I was checking the calender.
Anyway, he gave Mr Poon and told him that he believed I wasn't doing anything with my phone.
Anyway, I think I finally am able to see the glass as half-empty.
And not half-full.

Okay, random rants.
I want Havaianas.
I want that Topman tee.
I want a trucker cap.
I want that new bag.
I want to study. ):

Somebody's a bitch.
It's kinda obvious now who she is.
Ohwell.

Push-ups.
Dips.
Sit-ups.
Bathe.
Guitar. (maybe)
SLEEP.

2009-02-24T22:51:00.004+08:00

Confirmed the paddle already.
Training was shit runs for half an hour.
Training of core muscles.

Thursday's gonna be double the training.

I'm gonna blog soon.
I'm so tired right now.
Goodnight.

100 push-ups before I sleep. -.-
GREAT.

The past, should just be kept as a wonderful memory.
I said some stuffs which I should not have said.

2009-02-21T09:47:00.003+08:00

Hmm, I didn't go remedial today. -.-
Shucks.

Thursday,
Training was kinda slack.
Did gym and everything.
I'm gonna buy a paddle.
HAHA.
$370.
-.- -.- -.- -.- $.$ !
Everything on Thursday kinda sucked.
My mind was somewhere else.
I couldn't concentrate.
I dropped my phone and the loudspeaker cannot be used anymore.
I am super exhausted.

Friday.
It's a total opposite of Thursday.
The taxi driver in the morning was super duper friendly..
I did a good deed during recess.
It just felt so good, helping someone.
Some pretty good stuff happened in school too.
Then came the part.
After school.
Everything just kinda sucked.
All those that I slacked with,
I think they're becoming such a whore.
Though I didn't tell anybody about it.
But shit,
Whores.
I think I'm not gonna waste my time with them.
Waste my money, waste my time, waste my life away.
Well, the usual people like Andrew, Ammar, Brad, Kong are still great.
Except for the whore-fags that I totally don't want to see.

Yeh, anyway. -.-
Tuition in the morning, guitar in the late afternoon tomorrow.
Shucks.

I. NEED. TO. TALK. TO. SOMEBODY. I. CAN. TRUST. BADLY!

Inaudible.

2009-02-18T20:18:00.004+08:00

I am super tired.
Today's quite a bore. -.-
Especially with History in the first period.
Total killer.
I'm gonna bring sweets to occupy myself instead of falling asleep.
How I wish Madam Hassan was teaching us.
Though her strict rules and stuff,
She made History and Social Studies interesting.

I'm so so so so so bored with school.
Seeing the same old faces everyday.
Doing the same old stuffs.
Eat the same old shit everyday.
Fuck, 8 more months to freedom.
After O's then got so much activities. -.-
Phuket trip, chalets, Sentosa outing, Haji lane, town.
O levels costs me $360 bucks.
Expensive.

I'm so bored of you. -.-
Yeh, I don't feel like entertaining you anymore.
How stupid of me.

I tried to kill the pain
But only brought more

I lay dying and I'm pouring
Crimson regret
And betrayal

I'm dying, praying
Bleeding, I'm screaming
"Am I too lost to be saved?"
Am I too lost?

My God, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
My God, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation

Do you remember me?
Lost for so long
Will you be on the other side?
Or will you forget me?

My wounds cry for the grave
My soul cries for deliverance
Will I be denied Christ?
Tourniquet, my suicide.

2009-02-17T22:10:00.002+08:00

Push-ups, crunches, chin-ups.
Cigarettes, A&W root beer, chips.
Protein, calcium, sodium.
Homework, test, homework.
Music, guitar, music.
Dragonboat training.
Hell, hell, MORE HELL.

Guitar class sucked.
Why?
Because there is a fatty who acts like he's super impressive. -.-
Then he laughs at his oil-filled lame jokes. -.-
Then he WEARS FUCKING BAGGY JEANS WITH THE FOLD-UPS.
I'm not gonna be religious-biased.
He goes to church.
What the fuck's wrong with his hair?
OMGWTF.

Shucks. 2 months away from the race and our fitness is not even there yet.
First is Temasek Regatta, then the nationals.
Our coach wants us to get first for cup finals.
He told Mr Ng that we have potential.
6 people are ready already.
So we've got to fucking train like hell.
Training regime is hard,
We've seen loads of grit determination, wimps and more wimps.
Training is hard, but we have to push our limits.
And those who sabo-ed the whole team to do push-ups,
Thanks. -.-

I'm so dead tired. -.-
I'm gonna do hundred push-ups and then bathe.
Then I'm gonna crash the bed.

I NEED TO GET SOME SLEEP.

In a dilemma.

2009-02-12T22:43:00.006+08:00

Today was fun.
We ended school early.
We slacked and then went training.
Training was super slack, super easy.
We had fun during training.
NOT.

We ended late today.
PE was shit because my own class played rough in a game. =.=
Everything was plain tiring.
Because we ended late today, went straight for training.
Stupid mother tongue teacher also wanted me to pass up some Chinese composition.
Training was super duper tough.
Billions of push ups.
Leg raise, sprints, everything. -.-
Our coach still said that it's nothing yet.
We're gonna double it next week.
Every one's like super exhausted already lor. -.-
Our coach even wanted us to paddle blindfolded in a competition. O_O
I scraped my elbow and it bled, cool.

The only good part was that Saiba's mother gave us a lift home.
LOL.

Anyway, tough training.
Then can win championship what.
Stupid gays aiming for plate.
Why can't they aim big.
Settle for cup?
I don't know. -.-

Tomorrow's Friday.
I hope everything goes out fine.
I really really really hope it does.

I haven't bought presents for Valentine's yet, maybe tomorrow.
I haven't thought of what to do on Valentine's too.
Any any any suggestions?
Fizi wanted a double date, but nah.
Haha!

Guitar, crunches.
I am so super tired already. O_O

We will live forever and ever.

2009-02-10T21:34:00.003+08:00

Today sucked.
Total Defence shit.
Canteen sold shit.
Everything except training is shit.

Yeh,
I'm tired.
Especially this week.
Piles of homework, things to buy, remedials, tuitions.
Shucks.

Goodbye.
I'm gonna feast on my chips.

Yongxian's at FOB's.
LOL.
I WANT AS I LAY DYING TO COME MAN. SHIT.

Guitar, chips, crunches.
Bye.

2009-02-08T23:14:00.002+08:00

Blogging about yesterday in 5 minutes. -.-

Mr Poon's house.
After that went to Bedok Reservoir with Ruzaini and the rest.
Reaching midnight already.
Tell ghost stories.
Played dare-games. (I have to kissed Ruzaini. -.-)
Well, KEITH IS SO DAMN NOT SPORTING.
Stupid. -.-
Cabbed to Hougang.
End.

Blog more tomorrow.
Bye!

You wear your skin like it's too tight.

2009-02-06T23:25:00.003+08:00

Mr Poon's house tomorrow evening.
Going Tampines, then Bedok.
Then maybe Changi Airport.
I don't know.

I'm hungry, Macdonald's delivery. :D

Guess what,
I wanna go catch a movie.

I haven't thought of what to get for Valentines leh. -.- -.- -.-
WHERE IS THE NEAREST FLOWER SHOP?! >:
Sianz. -.-

I'm not free on the 12th, 13th, 14th and 15th.
Cool huhs.
Everyday go out,
Surely spend alot lor! -.-
I need to save. -.-
SHIT LAH.
I want to go buy somemore clothes. -.-

I'm bored,
Guitar.

The word "best friend" becomes redefined.

2009-02-05T21:15:00.002+08:00

Cabbed to school.
Idiot discipline master.
Talked about the smoking thing,
Then call my name out. -.-
Made everyone thought I kena for smoking.
Wtf.

My hair so short already,
Still tell me go cut, still long.
Gay idiot.
Then some old old teacher that teaches Literature.
That bitchy slut one lah.
I set reminder in my handphone,
She kp want confisicate.
Then I just say "Bullshit."
She gay one sia!
Go tell my discipline master. -.-
And passed the phone to him.
In the end I got back my phone.
Stupid old bitch, die earlier lah.

Thermometer check tomorrow.
Mr Poon's not gonna be in school tomorrow.
Saturday is super duper packed.
Sunday's packed till evening,
Which I also have something on.
Weekends are packed, sian. -.-

Total Defence Day on Tuesday.
I must reach school by 6.40am.
Wow. -.-
Thanks lor, Benjamin.
Sabo. -.-

I've finally realised,
Not only did you sell Bout.
You sold me out too.
The walls have ears, they have eyes too.
To think you tell me not to do something,
So that "I won't bastard my brother."
Instead, it's for your gain.
You sick bastard.
I heard it, saw it.
Even seeing it with my own eyes.
Don't try to deny or what.
So much for me helping you so much.
So much for us trusting so much to you.
So much for being "brothers".

2009-02-04T21:16:00.002+08:00

Today, isn't a good day.

My right eye is bloodshot red.
My left wrist is sprained.

Although the morning was quite alright.
Cabbed with Saiba and Yongxian.
The driver was friendly?
Haha!

Recess, bullshit.
After eating, I go toilet.
Saw my discipline master.
He saw me also.
I dashed into the toilet to avoid him.
But he "camped" at the spiral stairs for me.
While I tried to hide behind the pillar till he goes off,
He stood still and waited for me like an idiot.
So I am tired of the waiting game and I surrendered myself. -.-
He told me to cut my hair and all the bullshit.
Yeh, he sucks.

Yanna's birthday bash after school.
Threw eggs, flour and it was raining.
First egg got her hair,
Second egg just bounced off her three times straight. -.-
I forgot to take out my tie, then my tie kena flour.

I went to cut my hair.
It's short.
Shut up.
It's short.
I swear I'll make it grow like crazy. -.-

Okay, fine.
Guitar time.
Haha!
Whenever I need to think over something that's bothering me,
I'll play my guitar, alone. -.-
I so love my guitar. HAHA.

I'm so troubled by something.
Like really. :/
Well, my closer friends should know.
Like, howwww.

I don't know why.
But I like this music video.

And I am here still waiting.

2009-02-03T21:23:00.002+08:00

Monday,

Had last minute tuition at Mavis.
Tuition at 6.30pm, I was informed at 5.40pm.
Cool huhs.

Tuesday,

Had two tests today.
Physics in the morning followed by mother tongue.
Haha!

Training sucked.
Sucked at best.
16.
SIXTEEN DAMN TIMES IN 2KM THE FUCKER SLAMMED HIS PADDLE INTO MY WRIST.
Stupid sec1s.
So fat somemore.
So right now,
I've got a swollen wrist and it's fucking painful.
SHIT LAH.
So I was in a fucking bad mood after training.
I'm not angry at you all lah,
I'm just pissed at the sec 1 for that.
But hey,
Everyone makes mistakes.

This is so random.
It's 10.11am now.
So 10 + 11 = 21.
So I'm gonna tell you 21 things you'll never know about me. :D
SO COOL RIGHT.

1. I can only stay angry for five minutes, maximum.
2. 90% of my wardrobe is black.
3. I love animals.
4. Music IS my life. (shit I sound so twitter-gay)
5. I hate fat people.
6. I play the guitar.
7. I am not that stupid, I'm just faking it.
8. Really, I just play dumb all the time. O:
9. I like neon colours. -_-
10. Did I say that I like black? I like black.
11. I'm bored of this already, can I stop at 15?
12. I am very picky. (I can spend hours deciding what to do with my hair before going to school)
13. I eat a lot. (Really! I will never EVER grow fat no matter how much I eat.)
14. I'm a movie-junkie. :D
15. Okay, I continue to 21. -.-
16. I am very very very very easily annoyed.
17. I am very self-conscious.
18. I WATCH AANG. THE LAST AIRBENDER ON OKTO. 7.30!
19. O LEVELS ARE COMING.
20. Mythbuster's cool.
21. HI MY NAME IS JASPER.

I wanna try mohawks.
My hair needs a haircut. Gah.

In her gallows built for me.

2009-02-01T22:36:00.004+08:00

Yeh, hell.
Dad's flown already.
Guitar.
I had 9 minutes until classes start and I'm still at home.
Cabbed there.
Went there just in time.
Some new girl just joined, I think.
Thankfully, today.
THAT IDIOT GUY THAT PLAYS SHIT RANDOM NOTES.
IS NOT AROUND.
Phew,
Lucky me. -.-

Guess what.
I'm attending church next week onwards.
City Harvest.
I think the cell group's W411.

Tomorrow's school.
Hair check.
I've got a good feeling I'm gonna get sent home.
Shucks.
We'll see how it goes.

Goodbye!

The Fear Of Becoming.

2009-02-01T00:18:00.006+08:00

Yeh,
I swear, people.
Inkheart's kinda cool.

I'm sorry for not blogging for awhile.
I was too busy myself. -.-
Always going out, going out and going out. -.-

My room's a cool golden hay-type-of-colour.
:D :D :D

I have problems talking on the phone for very long these few days.
Blame the pineapple tarts and stuffs.
CNY's literally boring.
Except for the fact that we can gamble.
Yeh, I don't care about angpao.
Because I everyday also get money from my parents. -.-
I'm sick of all the same food, same everything. -.-
On the eve, we had like, everything.
Abalone, Yu Sheng and stuffs.
Then the next day, AND THE FUCKING NEXT DAY.
Then pineapple tarts and all the shits.
GAWD SAVE ME. -.-

Friday. (Well, that's all the stuffs that I remember only.)

Juniors coming over for their first sea training on Tuesday.
HAHA.
I'm like so wanting to see them struggle like we did when we had our first training.

OHYAH.
I wore geek specs.
HAHAHA.
I wore it to school just to disturb people.
Instead, people kept borrowing it from me. -.-
Health check,
The nurse showed my geek specs to her other colleagues saying it's got no degree.
Then talk about my hair. -.- -.- -.-
AND THEN HOR.
OUR SCHOOL GOT A BOMB SHELTER RIGHT.
BELOW OUR SCHOOL THERE IS A FUCKING ARMOURY.
WHICH MEANS THERE'S GUNS BELOW OUR SCHOOL.
Shocking right.
I don't know untill yesterday sia. -.- -.- -.-

My dad came to school.
Talked to Mr Poon.
Then I was asked to leave them have some privacy.
So I waited at the bench.
UNTIL I FUCKING SIAN LAH.

I went to Mr Ng's house at evening/night.
Last minute one.
I went with Joey, Jin You, Candice, Eugene, Leon, Dylan.
I swear his house is fucking big.
Gambled.
Haha!
Anyway, I'm joining Mavis from February onwards.
So don't bug me saying you miss me.
HAHAHAHA. -.-

Yeh, that's all.
I hate gamers.
Well, not so much literally.
Like,
Primary school kids playing maple still okay what. -.-
Imagine you're fucking sec 4 already still play. FUCK.
I hate gamers like these.Shitheads.

I'm tired of giving my all.
I see no point.

I'm so sick of shopping.
Really.
Very very very sick.

My dad's flying off, well.
Practically hours later.
I didn't attend his business lunch at Orchard in the morning.
Everyone's at Bugis in the afternoon except me. -.-

Okay, It's all very random.
I know.
I didn't plan it out.
I just typed what comes into mind.

Went Singapore Flyer just now.
It's quite scary if you were to look vertically down from the flyer.
Imagine those people stuck up there that time.
Then ended the ride.
Stupid tourist center stuffs.
Souvenirs for them and stuffs,
Then had dinner at Seafood Paradise.
Same old thing, Yu Sheng, shark's fin, abalone. -.-
I swear I'm so tired of them. -.-
Howeverrrrrr,
The greatest part was that I had gelato at Gelatissimo.
Chocolate Truffle.
I tell you, I swear I'm coming back for more!
Then we walked towards the Esplanade.
And they had Chingay, so we walked past the floating platform.
I SWEAR I SWEAR I SWEAR I WALKED INTO A MASQUERADE!
Everyone had masks, face paints and all those stuffs.
Pity I did not taking pictures with them.
Never mind! Next year! :D :D :D
Then we wanted to go DXO,
But my brother cannot.
Sian. -.-
So we went home.
I didn't know that a couple of Chingay "officials" stay near me. LOL.
Because I recognised their pink and white shirt.
And the tag. -.-
All these for a shopping spree in Peninsula.
Quite a bargain huhs.
I next time then go Peninsula buy my stuffs lor.

Question : What did I wear today.
Answer : All black lor! Haha! Standard. -.-

Goodbye people!
Guitar tomorrow.
I'm going airport in the morning for breakfast.
Then send my dad off.
Well, actually.
It's hours later.
So, I wanna go sleep.
Bye!

(How how how how I wished ;
That girl with white top would stop at my stop.
She kinda looked like that girl in my guitar class. O: )

Your compass will, help me turn the page.

2009-01-27T12:58:00.002+08:00

I've got to get Zhixin a Pokemon watch. -.-
How cool.
HAHAHA.
I think it's somewhere inside Toys'R'us.

My hands are rough. ):
Very very rough.
Howwwwwwwwwww. ):

Anyway,
Fuck new year.
A complete waste of time.
I've not yet done my homework yet.
I have to go all the way to the other end of Singapore,
Just to fucking sit there and watch teevee.
There's a test tomorrow.
Wow. -.-

I've got my Post-it notes.
:D :D :D

Anyway, I wore black to people's house.
HAHAHAHA.
How controversial.
All the aunties stare like some fuck. -.-
Whatever.
I think I'm gonna watch a movie tonight.

My new phone's so soft lor.
Sian. -.-
Soft, but clear. :D

Discomfort endlessly has pulled itself upon me.

2009-01-23T22:31:00.005+08:00

I have been listening to Linkin Park for the whole of today.
I don't know why.

Wednesday.

Same mundane school stuffs.
Maths remedial.
Got home, prepared and went bugis first.
Then town.
Then bought my watch.
Then go have dinner.

Thursday.

I got fucking pissed after pe.
I left my watch to the care of douglas.
He allowed people to take it when I told him not to.
At least that one still nevermind.
Some fucker took already.
Left it on the floor.
Then just say,
"Orh, Tommy Hilfiger watch scratch already not valuable liao."
KNNCCB.
Fucking pissed me off.
So I decided to be mean.
VERY MEAN.
Yes, stupid dog.
I thought he's super-duper-uber rich?
Gay.
Rich then go buy your own watch lah.
Fucking gay.

Friday, today.

Some idiot fatass ruined the day.
But some people really showed me what's "Others before self."
We had Chinese New Year's celebration.
Slacked awhile with the usual people.
Went to meet my dad for "lunch".
I don't eat lunch.
I am also still in my ugly school uniform.
So I ordered very little.
And my dad's with his friend.
Which is I also know lah.
Ex-neighbours.
Cool huhs?
Having your classmate becoming your neighbour,
Then become your business partner.
LOLOLOL.
Then go home.
Rested awhile.
Prepare to go out.
Went Parkway Parade.
I'm super tired.

Tomorrow's Tampines Mall.
Ohwell.
I'm not sure if my parent's still meeting us anot. -.-

Remember I said shop till I drop?
I wished I would drop now. -.-
I'm SUPER tired.

Changes, changes and shitload of changes!

2009-01-20T20:11:00.003+08:00

Okay.
We had a change of coach.
Her training style was different, but effective.
We had a change of paddles, boat, coach and newcomers.
HAHA.
So cool right.

Before training,
I went to Daryl's house. -.-
Yes.
HAHAHA.
I wanted to eat roti prata and they say now not yet time.
TWO SHOPS LEY.
Omg.

Class was fun?
LOL.
Pranks, jokes and stuff.
Homework. -.- -.- -.-

I need to work on my cardio, back, stomach and arm muscles again.
Because I have slacked and it is not gonna help in competition.
Yes.
I'm gonna get physical.

Piles and piles and endless piles of homework awaits me. -.-
SHIT. >:

My dad is coming home.
TODAY.
Great. -.-
No more slacking and all the shit stuffs I do until he goes again.
Well, the good part is that,
I AM GONNA BUY BUY BUY BUY STUFFS.
YAY.
SHOP TILL I DIE DROP DIE DROP.
HAHA.
Yey. -.-

Overall, today was fun.
Wait.
Everyday's fun. LOL.

Yeh, homework.
I haven't had lunch and dinner yet. -.-

2009-01-19T21:58:00.004+08:00

Okay, I have lots of homework to do.
Shit.

I'm going training tomorrow.
In case you're asking.
So don't ask anymore.

I changed the blog song already.
Shucks.
I'm so tired.

I'm just gonna focus on myself,
And not others for today. :D
Yeh, fuck the world.

I'm cabbing everyday to school now. -.-
I seriously am spending lots of money.
Sian.

I need a new phone badly. -.-
BADLY. B-A-D-L-Y.
B.A.D.L.Y.
YES BADLY I SAID BRAD IS BALD.
I love Brad! (:
HAHAHAHA.

I'm like living without breathing now.
Because music is the air that I breathe,
The blood that pumps through my veins.
So yeah.
It sucks.

Sometimes I wonder,
Why I could help so many people.
And not have the courage to help myself.
Sian.

I have a goatee. (:

To-do list:

Homework.
Training.
Study for test.
Guitar.

2009-01-17T14:58:00.008+08:00

This few weeks are quite busy for me. (and tiring)
But, on the bright side;
I'm going to join a cell group. HAHA.
DON'T. Don't ever tell me stuffs like,
"Oh great, you're finally settling yourself down. (:"

Anyway,
I served detention yesterday, (well, it's detention but I have to do CWO)
Slacked with Brad and Fariha after detention until evening.
Went home, mom was like at the door saying,
"Get yourself in the car in ten minutes."
So I did. -.-
Then we went to Square 2 for dinner @ pasta de waraku.
Then walked walked walked. -.-
Bought some drink which I don't know what is it at Square 2.
Which is actually chunks of flavoured ice at some korean store.
Then went to Velocity to find my mom's friend at Monsoon.
Then went home.
Reached home at around 10 plus.
Tired.
Teevee.
Sleep.

Yes. That's right.
And today's so gonna be uhm,
"A day full of memories."
HAHAHA.

I'm gonna take out all my stuffs which I kept in a part of my cabinet.
No, I'm not a garang-guni.
I kept those stuffs which I thought was,
Perfect-for-remembering-that-one-special-person.
HAHAHA.

Yes, that's all.
Goodbye people, hello food. :D :D :D

I've never told you how much I love food right?
HAHAHA.

I'm 49.6kg. -.-
Dead serious.

2009-01-15T22:29:00.003+08:00

Tuesday,
Watched Twillight.
LOLOL.
Girls movie.
But it's not that bad lah.
But if you really want to watch vampires.
Wait for Underworld.
It's coming out soon.

I'm kinda troubled by some matters.
Super sian.
SIAN SIAN SIAN SIAN.

I went home,
Youtubed.
Then study geography notes.
LOL.

Blink 182 rocks.
Their songs are just different.
Sadly, the three best of friends.
Disbanded and formed bands like (+44) and AVA.

Postponed detention to Friday.
Cancelled every single outing for this week.
Dad's coming home next week I think.

Ohwell, at least I know got Felicia.
HAHAHA.
She bakes the nicest cookies. :D :D :D
And I'm gonna miss it. ):
I won't be able to have her cookies after this year lor! ):
But she said that she'll bake for me until we have wrinkles and grey hair.
But I won't grow old lah, only she will. :D :D :D
HAHAHA.
Yeah, she's the best. :D

2009-01-12T22:36:00.004+08:00

Friday,
I had CCA exhibition.
Kinda fucked.
Because some idiot came so late.
Then instead of helping us,
Stood infront of us to flirt lah.
Knn! Gave him hints still pretend.
Wtf lah, still say what shit brother.
Then say we ignore him first.
Knn ley! Stupid fuck.
Sometimes, the stuffs which you think are funny.
Is very irritating for us.

I saw stuffs behind school.
Blame Fariha for the nightwalk.

Saturday,
Temasek Poly's open house.
LOLOLOL.
I've thought of going Temasek's business school.
Slacked, roti-prata-ed.
Go Hougang.

Sunday,
Skipped guitar.
Met Fariha instead.
Went City Hall then to Swissotel.
Attended distant relative's wedding dinner.
There's some MP there,
Ang Moh Kio one or smth.
Some directors and a director of chinese medicine also was there.
I didn't even know that I got relatives in Japan, Vietnam,
China, Malaysia, Australia from my mother's side.
LOLOLOL.
Kinda cool actually,
For all you know,
I might be your uncle or something. HAHAHA.

Monday,
I WAS LATE FOR SCHOOL.
SHIT. SHIT. SHIT.
Yeah, then called parents.
Mr. Yew talked to me.
Alot of people talked to me.
Saw the seniors taking their O's result.
Then I understood how important O's are.
And I'm gonna sort out myself.
I'm gonna start studying.

Sort out my friends.
Sort out my life.
Sort out my studies.

Yeah, this year's so gonna be tough for me.
Good luck to me.

2009-01-08T22:07:00.002+08:00

Okay, I blew my top this morning.
I'm kinda in a bad mood this few weeks.
Well, not anymore. :D

I'll blog again some other day.
Tomorrow's cca orientation.
Bye.

Karma.

2009-01-05T22:29:00.006+08:00

FUCK.

Stiff-neck.
Short hair.
Haircut by DM.
Brother got MC for tomorrow.
Phone's off-limits after 10.30am.

Today's my unluckiest day.
FUCK.

Blame it on karma then.

(I am having a foul mood now, don't call / text me till tomorrow.)

2009-01-04T22:13:00.003+08:00

Okay, it's school tomorrow.
Shucks.

I'll have to sleep early.
Alarm clock's gonna ring at 5am.
Hear the teachers nag.
Hairchecks.
Bullshit classroom and sleepy lessons.
Posers roaming the school posing. -.-
You think!

Holiday assignments are to be passed up tomorrow.
I lost my coastal notes.
Recess is sure gonna be packed. (given the new timetable)
We're gonna have combined upper-secondary recess.
Remedials, extra lessons and CCAs are bound to start next week.
O's are looming around the corner.

I'm totally not looking forward to tomorrow lor.
How I wish 2008's still around. ):

Anyway, on a brighter note!
I'm going to go with the usuals to Ngee Ann Polytechnic's open house.
:D :D :D
It's on a saturday, 10th January.

And on the 11th January.
I have a wedding dinner to attend.
My distant relatives are getting married! O:
It's gonna be held at the Swissôtel.
What's even better is that,
I'm going to have a chance to wear my custom made suit!
HAHAHA.
THIS IS THE SHIT MANZ.
I'll have to rush to the dinner directly after my guitar.
I'll need to figure out how'd I go there in time.

Anyway,
I've dyed my hair back to black already!
Except for my fringe,
Which I'm gonna spray it black tomorrow morning. :D
And I have to meet early Zhiqing to lend her my spray. -.-
Which I doubt I'll make it in time.

Anyway, I took bus 21 to tampines mall today.
On the way,
I saw an accident.
I tell you, from where I am.
And what I see.
Is seriously scary.
I saw two legs coming out from below the car.
I saw something "splattered" on the road.
People stopping their car and rendering help to the lady.
Passers-by standing and watching the situation.
LIKE WHAT THE FUCK LAH.
Then the driver signalled the vehicles to move.
When the bus passed the car.
I first thought they were brains.
Then I realise they were vomit.
And there's no blood. WTF.
Then the commotion was like, super super long lah.
Then the lady WASN'T below the car.
She's concious and looks like a bimbo. -.-
Grasping her
What the fuck.
Anyway, I got quite a shock too.

I'm forgetting to reply and call people back.
I'm getting serious headaches.
Fuck.
Thinking of school really gives me headaches.

I still have tuition.
WTF SIA.
I don't wanna go. -.-
Well, maybe I will.
We'll see how.
If not, I'll go for a month only.

Yeah, whatever.
I'm quite tired already.

2009-01-04T11:37:00.002+08:00

It's gonna rain soon.
The sky is dark.
I have guitar later.
Sian. -.-

SIAN SIAN SIAN !!

Hahaha!
Yeah, I am so bored. -.-
School's starting tomorrow also.
Fuck.
I don't know how I'll cope lor. :/

Sian. -.-

2009-01-03T05:53:00.001+08:00

I have a severe case of insomnia. -.-
Shucks.

First day of school and I'm regretting it.
How I wish '08 is still around.
Same old shit.
Hair check.
Kena for colour.
Benoit they all said length too.
But it's the first time I didn't get pulled out by the DM ley.
Then say hair colour get it done on Monday.

Went Bedok Town Park with the usual people there.
Went home.
Sleep.
Mother called to kp say Mr Poon called to complain about my hair.
Say my fringe and tail long.
What bullshit!

First of all, I hate people calling behind my back.
I wanted to ask Mr Poon.
If you want to complain,
Complain straight in my face
But fuck, I'm lazy.

Joyce's birthday,
I heard nobody's going.
So I was quite reluctant already.
But some bullshit "brother" of mine.
I asked him twice about where is it at.
And whether is he going.
But fuck!
He didn't reply.
So yeah, I didn't go alr.
So sorry Joyce!

I can't sleep. I can't sleep. I can't sleep.
):

2009-01-01T02:30:00.007+08:00

OMG INDIANS ARE FUCKING GAY.
GAY WITH THE G . H . E . Y. (!!)

This is my so owed picture.
LOL.

Happy New Year to you guys who sms-ed me your wishings.
I've recieved two random calls from people that I don't know?
I don't know. They just called.
And said "Happy New Year! Woo~"
Then hang up. -.-
Well, another's even funnier. -.-
Zhixin HOR.

Haircut tomorrow with Shane. :D
Mom gave me a huge allowance for tomorrow. LOL.
But I'm gonna save it all up for something else. :D :D :D
Bought hairdye. -.-
I'm over at Hougang now.

New year's resolution anyone?

2008-12-31T13:24:00.003+08:00

Okay,
I'm gonna give what I remember these few days.

29th,
Met Zhixin, go btp's mac do homework with "the crew" *winks
HAHA!
Then slack at econ.
Then I send Zhixin home, then we come back to my place again.
Then send her to the bus.

30th.
I got some weird encounter with something weird.
Something kept poking my back and tapping my shoulder.
When I can see my brother asleep and the door isn't opened.
So I shut my eyes till I sleep.
Lol. -.-
Then when I wake up, nobody's at home.
Then I scared, then Zhixin came to pei me.
-.-
Yes, I am scared.

So yeah, Zhixin's the best. :D

Anyway,
I had my goatee shaved. ):
The one which I had waited for it to even grow lah!
Ohwell.

Countdown, I'm still not sure yet.
People kept telling me to go out,
Some are from church,
The rest say go out.
But I ask do what,
Church people will only say countdown countdown countdown.
Then my friends would say, "Don't know, see how lor."
Untill I sian,
So I'm not going out.
Maybe going Marina for the fireworks.
But I felt like staying at home this year. :/

I love Zhixin.

2008-12-29T01:04:00.001+08:00

I've seen Jasper in a dress.
Have you ? (:

-Zhixin.

2008-12-28T03:17:00.004+08:00

OMG OMG OMG OMG.
You are fat.
And I rock.
Bye.

Okay,
That's to that fatass who thinks she's so cool.
N-O.
No, you are not.
Far from it.

Anyway~
I met Andrew in the afternoon.
Slack and stuffs.
Then I met Chen Han and Allen. (Chen Han's friend)
Go ate prata. :D :D :D
I FUCKING LOVE PRATA (!!)
Prata king. LOL.
The tissue prata damn nice sia.
Got chocolate one. ^^
Then we went to Allen's house.
Got dog! ^^
Two dogs somemore! ^^ + :D :D :D
Play card games.
Talked.
Haha!

Anyway, I'm in Hougang now.
And Zhixin's coming back in 5 hours time.
I'll stay up lor.
Anyway I still have to go home and get my belt.
And that fatty,
Luckily I'm in a good mood.
Or else that fatty dies.

Countdown,
Don't bug me about it.
Siloso.
But I think need 18 leh.
But then again, I heard no more liao.
Wtf.

Steamboat at Chinese New Year @ Allen's place. :D :D :D

OH OH OH OH.
I GOT MY TAIWAN'S PHOTOS.
But I don't think got close-up.
Because I think very step cute.
Wtf.

Anyway,
FAT PEOPLE DIE EARLIER BECAUSE THEY ARE FAT.

2008-12-26T22:54:00.002+08:00

I met Brad and Fariha to do homework.
I am very tired today. -.-
Yes, I am going to sleep after blogging.

Christmas.
Went to Kovan Melody for dinner.
Ate, then I sit down there stone lah.
Like, talk to the people there so paiseh. -.-
Then I don't understand them.
And even more best.
I kissed a dog. -.-
The dog came and ran towards me.
Then lick lick lick.
Omg.

Anyway,
I'm getting a dog. :D
HAHA. YAY.

Anyone has any idea on countdown? O:

2008-12-24T19:34:00.013+08:00

Okay.
Finally I was able to sleep.
Well, because of the weather.

Anyway,
I slacked with ChenHan around 2am.
Then went to Bernard's house there.
Then kopitiam.
Then home-d. :D

Anyway, today's ChenHan's birthday!
WOOHOO~
Hahaha!

Christmas.
Have you ever wondered why you celebrate christmas?
Like, why and how is christmas created.
Many say it's a celebration of Jesus Christ.
While many argued with that statement.
Some say it's a time of giving.
Well, my baby cousin when asked.
He'd say that it's a time for him to go to sleep early.
To be very obedient.
If not he won't get presents. (Aww, aren't toddlers cute? NO.)
Haha!
Like when you're young,
You carry that stupid belief.
And now,
You just celebrate christmas as a chance to get-together, party.
Just like me. (Okay, no link. -.-)
Anyway,
It doesn't really matter whether I get what I want,
When I see others who don't have anything.

So, HAHAHA.
How are you guys gonna celebrate Christmas?
And yeah, countdown too.
Because I'm given the responsibilty to plan on how to celebrate it.
I think I'd just stay at home and sleep. :D
I wanna go the Marina Bay countdown party.
But Fareha don't want.
Maybe we go somewhere else and do something then. LOL.
Any suggestions man?

And fuck.
I said no means no.
No point forcing me to go church.
You don't want me to fucking hate you,
Then don't be fucking irritating.
You know I won't.
So why bother.
Stupid.

Zhixin's finally replied my email too. :D :D :D
Though I've been sms-ing and calling her throughout lah.
But I still miss her. ):

If there's Santa, then let him put Zhixin into my christmas socks. ): ): ):

2008-12-24T14:50:00.001+08:00

Ass hole.
What do you mean when was the last time you saw Zhixin in a dress.
Yes and i miss you.

2008-12-23T17:41:00.002+08:00

Yeah,
I am so damn tired right now.
I didn't sleep yesterday night.
Wtf.
Training was kinda, different?
Last time with our coach. :/

Okay, let's talk about a topic.
A Child's Growth Depends On Their Parents.

Reasons why I am what I am today.
1. Family.
2. Family.
3. Family.
4. Family.

I have bad exam results.
I have bad habits.
I don't give a fuck about everything.
I made bad decisions that usually costs me dearly.

Why?
Because I didn't grow up in a perfect family environment.

I "lost" my dad for 5 years.
Only to see him a couple of times every year.
He takes aeroplanes like taking MRT.

My mom always nags and complains and shit.
They give unrealistic expectations of me.
They expect me to be like them.
To think, speak and act like them. WTF.

I've not a parent to be my side all the way.
Giving me support and courage.
Thus I seek refuge in friends.
Friends can lead you good, but they can lead you bad too.
Precisely why,
I am like this today too.

Without them, I play.
I play and play and play and play.
Thus making me play more than study.
Thus making me have low grades.

Lastly,
Without them to guide me,
Teach me what's right.
How would I know what's right?

That's why I say,
GO FUCKING BELIEVE IN YOUR CHILD.
LEARN HOW TO FUCKING BE A PARENT.
SAVE YOUR CHILD BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE.

Yeah. LOL.
I was just so out-of-context just now. -.-
Anyway,
I'm tired but I have to go Vivo to get my new number plan.
I'm hungry too.
Ohwell.

2008-12-22T19:06:00.013+08:00

I reached home at 10 plus yesterday.
Bathed. Eat. Watch Transporter 3 on DVD. Met Magdalene. Sleep.
Yeah.
Busy hor.
That's only the night-to-morning part.

One day before, Sunday ; 5am.
After blogging, I went to clean up my room. :D
I'm super proud of myself.
Then when I check the time, 7am. -.-
Sleep and got woken up at 8am.
Decided to sleep again.
Woke up at 11.30am.
I'm supposed to meet Pearlyn to go to her church at 11am.
Rushed, prepared.
Then cabbed to her church. -.-
She kept complaining, "See, we're going to be late already lah!"
Like, a christian without having a bit of faith.
Then we reached.
Wasn't late. -.-
Service and stuffs.
Then the people talked to me and stuffs.
The people there, are quite great actually.
However, there's some posers that wants to act in front of me.
WTF.

I give you example.

Him: "Hey! I'm whats-his-name. Just remember me can already."
Me: "Huh, alright."
Him: " You uh, listen to metal one right."
Me: *mutters "You fucking see me wear like that, listens to Chinese pop?"
Me: "Uh, yah."
Him: "You know hor, I last time also like you one."
Me: "Okay."
Him: "You know, I listen to Atreyu one."
Me: *thinking "WTF. You say Atreyu metal? O_O"
Him: *looks at my shirt
Him: "Arch Enemy, hmms. I'm not really a fan of it."
Me: *thinking "Eh stupid, I wear their shirt meaning I am right."
Me: *thinking and glaring at him "You trying to pick a fight is it."
Me: "You know, Atreyu ISN'T metal."
Me: "You should hear their latest album. Especially "Falling Down"."
Me: "Sibei pop sia."
Him: "Ex's and Oh's?"
Me: *thinking "Wtf, poser loser. -.-"

Then bus-ed to Tampines for guitar.
Quite funny though.
Learning Led Zeppelin's riffs.
LED ZEPPELIN~ :D :D :D
Then ended class.
Called Fareha.

Met her near her house, slacked.
Then two more people came.
Then I slacked with her for like, 4 hours?
Then went home.
I reached home at 10.50pm.
Ohyah, did I mention that until 10.50pm,
I haven't had my breakfast, lunch, dinner yet?

Bathed, heated the pizzas in the fridge.
Watched Transporter 3 until the pizza's are ready.
Ate, then Magdalene called.
4 plus already.
Then slacked awhile.
6 am then I go home sleep.
When I sleep, my mom just woke up. -.-

Then I slept until 6pm today.
WOOHOO~ -.-
Fuck.
I'm hungry and tired now.
I ordered Mcdelivery. :D :D :D
Fucking 45 minutes already LEH. -.-

Ohyah,
Did I mention that Transporter 3,
Only comes out in cinemas next year? O:
Don't count the sneak previews lah. -.-
Even so, sneak previews ALSO HAVEN'T COME YET. :D

2008-12-20T05:02:00.001+08:00

I am totally nocturnal.
It's time for me to sleep now.
But I still can't sleep. -.-

I talked to Kahwai around 3am just now.
LOL.
She's funny lah.
I scared her saying ghosts and stuff.
Then she scared. -.-
Talked to her on the phone then I went to meet ChenHan to slack.
Then now then come back.

I am still very bored. -.-
And very wide awake.
LOL.
My arms are still quite aching.
Damn.

2008-12-18T22:01:00.002+08:00

My arms are aching,
My arms are breaking.
Have you ever felt like somebody's taking a drill,
Drilling through your bones and it's never-ending?
Fuck,
It's torture.

It's sucks waiting for a call that never comes.
Really.
I'm sorry guys,
If I happen to forget to reply your text, messages and stuffs.
I'm just to caught up in myself.

I'm feeling light-headed now.
I wanna go sleep.
Sleep until it's 28th.
I'm always spending my time doing something else.
So that I won't miss Zhixin.
But I played the games until sian already.

Somebody kill me.
It'll stop the agony.
Physically and mentally.
Fuck.

I went MacDonald's with ChenHan they all.
Did homework.
Then slacked.
Then ChenHan's friend came.
I shan't mention his name.
He's just out from jail.
He's tagged and has a 8pm curfew.
Talked and stuffs.
Then when we walked back,

He told me.
"Life's bound to have regrets and stuff.
The important thing is to,
Well, get a cert.
Everything's not that fucked now,
Since I'm still so young.
And though I'm thrown into the adult world.
I still have a school to study in.
So treasure the moment before it's too late."

I guess,
That set me thinking.
Really,
I should stop wasting time and work on it.
Like, really.

2008-12-18T04:49:00.002+08:00

Monday, December 15th.

Zhixin came over.
My mother got off with a bad start.
Then so good to her like that. -.-
Then Zhixin cabbed home.
Dinner at Marina Mandarin there.
Then went Marina Square for Swensen's Cookie Summit. :D
Then Zhixin reached airport.
Then she flew to Europe already. ):
I felt lost?

Tuesday, December 16th.

It's the second day I'm without Zhixin.
Guess what, I fell sick.
Came 20 mins late for training with Andrew, Benoit and Daryl.
Mr. Cho told us to choose between two punishments.
Either "Muscle Pain" or "Leaving You Breathless".
And we waited for ages and nobody said a single thing.
So I decided to choose "Muscle Pain".
And fuck.
We were supposed to do 200 push-ups continuosly.
We all can't do until the 100th one. -.-
Muscle cramps, stuffs like that.
I scraped both my knees because I can't do anymore.
The I used my knees, elbows and whatever I can to push myself up.
That sucks.
Then we didn't do sets or weights because we can't even do.
Then did runs then training ended.
Just one hour of training but we ached liked fuck.
This also showed us teamwork.
As everybody waited for each other and didn't complain though it's such a torture.
Usually the two hours also nothing to us lor.
Mr Cho also said,
He can't do what we did just now. LOL.
And he always does 80 push-ups for breakfast in the army.
Dang, fuck national service.
Then Zhixin sms-ed me.
I was so super happy lah.
Then I waited at 5am for her call.
But she was too tired, so she didn't call.
However, she promised she'll call the next day.
Felicia baked me cookies. :D :D :D

Wednesday, December 17th.

As you can see,
Changed blogskin, blog title, blog song,
Url, email and MSN.
Kinda bored, so did them all lor.
Haha!
Kahwai made my blogskin orange. :D :D :D

Thursday, December 18th.

It's 4.33AM right now and I'm typing away in my notepad,
Ready to copy to blogger.
I'm still having muscle aches due to Tuesday's training.
Damn, everything I do.
Like so hard, then like spasms like that.
Damn, I look so fucking spastic.
I'm waiting for Zhixin's call right now.
I miss her. ):
Going to do homework later with Chen Han they all.
Going Pearlyn's church on Sunday.
Guitar after that.

2008-12-17T18:06:00.001+08:00

Hi.